Weekly Weight: 213.0 lbs

Good morning my darlings. I know some of you are looking at the scale at the top of this post and are thinking, That seems to be the same number as last week, I wonder if Mimsy is disappointed? Actually I’m not.

First of all I am sort of reevaluating things. I am using a step tracker to count steps at the moment and instead of estimating my calories, I am keeping a detailed log and even scanning bar codes where available. I’m finding a lot of my estimations were a bit off. So I’m correcting that. I still want my weight to go down, but at the moment I am pleased that it hasn’t gone up during the adjustment.

The second reason I am not worried about my weight staying the same this week is that I am at my heaviest time of month. I always gain a bit of water weight around my period so this leads me to believe that I might be temporarily heavy. It is consistently a one to two pound gain at this time of month and has been since my teens.

And yet today my weight didn’t go up.

So there may not be a happy dance, but there is cautious optimism.

The Stats:

Starting Weight: 246.0 lbs

Last week’s Weight: 213.0 lbs

This week’s weight: 213.0 lbs

Lost this week: 0.0 lbs

Total loss thus far: 33 lbs

I know it isn’t the most exciting weight loss records. There are no dramatic numbers and weight drops, but quite honestly I don’t like the thought of rapid weight loss. First of all rapid weight loss makes me think deadly illness not fitness regime. And second I think if I lost all of the weight quickly and easily I wouldn’t value the loss as much and I would let it creep back up again thinking I could easily lose it again if I wanted.

Don’t get me wrong, if I could wave a magic wand, I would. I would love to have this excess weight off of my bones, if only to spare my knees the effort of carrying it around. But chipping away at it like I am means I value every single little chip of weight that leaves me. It is sweat and effort in every decimal point of weight. In addition, it takes time, which is kind of what I need. As I am progressing on this journey, I am working to build healthier habits.

There are no foods that are completely banned and demonized. I have not shunned bread or sugar or fat. I have very much lowered the amounts I consume, but not completely banned them. Partially because banning them would make me crave them more and partially because I think it is of more value for me to learn to balance things without banning them.

Should I gorge on cookies and cake? Of course not. But a cookie every now and then won’t kill me and having a slice of cake at a birthday party isn’t the end of the world. I want to be able to enjoy treats that might come my way without feeling guilty for enjoying them or without losing all self-control and emptying the cookie jar into my belly in one sitting.

In essence, I am learning moderation.

Overall it is working well. And I think in the end it will be better for me than any crash diet ever could be. Does it mean I won’t be tempted by food fads? Of course not, but at least I am building sensible eating habits to fall back on.

I know that was a long way to go to say I am okay with my weight staying the same this week. But there we go. Welcome to Friday, my darlings. I hope yours is fantastic.

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