And so the month of April No scale comes to an end. I am relieved that I did skip the scale this month. We had company, there was a holiday with extra feasting and it was nice to not have to think about the scale.
At the same time, I know I gained some weight. I can feel it in the waist band of my jeans. And while I hate knowing that I did gain weight, I think it would have added extra stress on an already stressful month to worry about the scale.
For me, April went bonkers. Earlier this year I agreed to a couple of projects that were supposed to be small ones with limited scopes of work. As time went forward they morphed and just took over. April was when they both wrapped up and so there were longer than normal days mixed in with the house guests and Holidays. To be honest, I don’t actually remember a lot of the month. It went whizzing by in a hail of deadlines.
Last week I realized that the month was coming to an end and that soon i would have to step back on the scale and see the gain in no argument digital numbers. My goal for this last week of April was not to panic. It was to put the month behind me, accept that the weight gain was coming and to not go crazy trying to take it all off before i stepped back onto the scale.
Instead i went through the cabinets and made sure we didn’t have any sneaky lurking holiday items. I made a meal plan and this week I concentrated on getting back on track with the meals and getting into the habit of paying attention instead of granting myself temporary exemptions. Mostly because I know that if i stress about it and try to go overboard then it will usually backfire on me. In other words i may lose what I added over April, but it won’t be sustainable so in may I’ll end up putting it back on again before I take it off. I’ve been on many back and forths over the years. And that is always what happens. So I am trying to deal with holiday weight in a healthier way. I am just accepting it, understanding that it was due to a change in diet and exercise and accepting that the weight will come back off once I get back into my routine.
I a also reminding myself that Easter was the last big Feast Holiday until Thanksgiving. In my family there will be a picnic for Memorial day and a barbeque for Independence day, but both are single events rather than long weekends and easily navigable, diet wise. The feasting Holidays start with thanksgiving, run through the holiday parties, Christmas, New years and then end with Easter. Which means that until November I will just have a few off days here and there, but nothing major to knock me off of my diet and exercise plan. At least nothing expected anyway.
There is always room for the unexpected.
So this is the end of April. Next week it will be back to the scale. While I no longer fear the scale as I once did, I will always have mixed feelings about it and will frequently need mental health breaks from it. Which I think is healthy. Sometimes life simply needs to be lived. While my weight loss is something needed for my over all health and well being throughout my life, it isn’t something that should take over my life. I know as these posts are a record of the ups and downs of my dieting life, weight and it’s loss (or lack of) can seem like the main focus of my world. It isn’t and sometimes it doesn’t hurt to be reminded that I am dieting to better my life, not living to diet.