Good Afternoon my darlings. I hope your week is going well. For me, today has been much calmer. Most of the necessary phone calls were taken care of and anyone who was calling in called in. While I appreciate every one of them, it is both physically and mentally draining to deal with.
I’m sure I’ll appreciate it more once I’ve had a little distance.
There is something about grief that just makes every action, every conversation feel like you are wading through waist deep mud. It just drains the energy right out of you. Later when the dust settles and you can think more clearly, you appreciate everything anyone has done for you and you replay the conversations that people had when they called and think about all of the help they were. Or at least that is how it was for me when my dad died. I expect it will be much the same now.
Later I will feel waves of love for everyone.
Right now it is just about getting through.
I don’t know if it is the same for everyone. Even with differences I suspect there is some element of that for most people, so if you are consoling anyone with a loss, especially a sudden one, know that you are appreciated even if it doesn’t seem like it at the time.