Weekly Weight: The December Break

For the past few years I have given myself the gift of skipping the scale for the month of December. It is a way to enjoy family time and friends without the added pressure of worrying about the scale. It is a gift for myself but it is also a gift for the people I am with. I still monitor what i eat, mostly by controlling my grazing and making certain to have a good meal before I actually go to a place where it is mostly snacks and appetizers. That way I can still have a small amount of what I want to taste, but am not facing temptation down while hungry.

Also it means that as I have no real dietary restrictions no one has to worry about what I can and can not eat. while i don’t mind counting my calories, I don’t want anyone else to worry about counting them for me. I personally don’t think my diet should be anyone else’s concern.

This year as I did add a little weight back when i went to help out my mother post surgery and then came back to a brand new scale which had the audacity to add on ten pounds that I didn’t realize my old and ailing scale shaved off for me, I was going to skip my no scale December so that I could keep better track of things.

And then i went home for Thanksgiving.

I know I joke about the butter explosion at the holiday and how it has shown on my skin. While I did indulge I actually did fairly well with my consumption. It was richer fare than i am used to that broke me out and left me craving raw veggies (I can’t get enough of raw spinach salads at the moment) but I did monitor my portion sizes and actually came home with the same weight as when I left, no loss, but no gain.

However I had a realization when I went home. Or maybe it was just the solidification of several separate trains of thought into one cohesive whole. Or maybe like staring at one of those old magic eye pictures and suddenly seeing the single image behind it.

However you want to phrase it, something clicked.

I love my family, I really do, but we have what I like to think of as different sectors. We have one sector that leans into the naturalistic hippy sort of vibe and one sector that is former and active military. We have the British sector (with a healthy Scottish bias) and the Quebecois sector that after a spate of older relatives deaths makes it more of a quadrant, but as they always add butter tarts and Tarte au Citron to the dinner table we will still call it a sector.

We also have a sector of the family that tends to focus more on appearance over everything else. (they are actually balanced by the University crew that cares more about what you know than what you look like, pretty much each sector of my family is balanced by an opposing one it seems. It can often make things very…interesting. Yeah, we’ll go with interesting.).

This trip home I ended up spending a lot more time with the appearance sector than I usually do. Spending time with them, I realized that my weight bothers them far more than it will ever bother me. And as I thought about it, I realize that the only complements I have ever received are when I have a full face of makeup up on and the only accomplishments they have ever said they were proud of involved me dropping a jean size. I also caught several glances at my plate while they often pushed a few untouched morsels around their plates.

Which quite frankly pissed me off.

It also made me want to double down on my portion size, eating just to spite them.

Which I actually caught myself doing and stopped.

It made me sit down and think about the concept of saboteurs. They come in all shapes and sizes. Some guilt you into eating something because they made it especially for you. Some insist that you clean your plate because there are starving people in Africa (or wherever your family claims starving people live when you won’t clean your plate. Oddly enough my Great Auntie Olive always used to say ‘There are starving people in Hell’ And in case you are squinching your eyes and tilting your head to figure out that bit of logic, apparently the punishment for wasting food in this life is starvation in the afterlife. At least in the Gospel According to Great Auntie Olive. I’m not sure how the clergy of any designated faith feels about the matter.)

For me one of my sabotages is the implication or accusation that I am not doing in my diet what others believe I should be doing. Rather than shame me into behaving it makes me want to mentally flip them off and double down on whatever I am eating at the time even if I know i don’t actually want any more.

It is something I know about myself so it is a sabotage i need to watch. Luckily I don’t see a lot of the people who fall into that family sector very often.

Which leads me to circle back to the original thought of this post, skipping December Weigh ins. While it is a nice gift to myself and to those around me (one less thing to worry/think about anyway), skipping December always has a practical purpose. It took me a while to realize this actually. Without the scale, I tend to focus more on how my body feels rather than the numbers.

Now I can’t go for too long without the scale, a month is about if before i start drifting into forgetting about eating correctly and lose the diet completely. However a month off lets me think about my body a bit clearer. while I still monitor calories it is at this time of year when traditional favorites come out and annual indulgences arrive that I start to realize that it isn’t just the weighing of ingredients that limits my portion size. My apititte has changed and my tastes have shifted. Something I might have once gorged upon I can only eat a smaller portion of without feeling ill because it is too rich for my system. or too salty or too sweet. It is with the month off of the scale that i listen to my body more.

And honestly that is a bigger gift than not causing my friends dinner party angst.

So this year I will be taking December off from the Scale. I will still check in each week with my weigh and my thoughts, but it will be January 6th when I step on the scale and start recording for a brand new year. For me the step back and internal evaluation will be a help as I move forward. I don’t know where you might be on your own weight loos or healthy living journey, but it is so easy to get so tangled up with just bits of everything that come at you from pretty much everywhere. Perhaps taking a breather might do you good as well. But it is your journey and you know it best. No judgement from me either way. It is a journey of individualized pathways and for me, I need to do an internal systems check before I step back on the steep slope of the pathway. Happy trails.


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Weekly Weight: 234.4 Lbs

It is always a disheartening sight to see any gain, but this week, I kind of knew it was coming. Monday I had my walk in with no problem. Tuesday the rains descended. It is still raining which means that the park is flooded as well as the rain is falling. while I did get some indoor workouts in and I actually feel really good about them, the workouts I do in doors simply don’t burn the same level of calories.

In addition i am getting ready for Thanksgiving travel. This week that meant extending my time at the desk as I try to clear a few days where I am not going to be around next week. And to be honest, I go through this every year. Around Thanksgiving everyone realizes that the holidays aren’t just upcoming, they are neigh. The it seems like everyone looks at the list they want to get through before the end of the year, and then subtracts the number of days everyone will have off for holidays and starts to freak out.

I actually get more work sent my way the week before Thanksgiving than any other week in the year.

After thanksgiving the holiday parties start to take the edge off. Plus everyone feels like they have already assigned everything that is coming up. At least where I am concerned.

Which means basically more desk and telephone time this week than anything else. And no escape into a walk either due to rain.

And while understandable, i am trying not to let it get me down. I know why the gain is there and I know what to do to correct it. I just was hoping it wouldn’t happen before a major feasting holiday. I like to go into the holidays as light as possible and that just wasn’t happening this year with everything that happened in the past few months.

I’m going to try not to let it get me down.

The Stats:

Starting Weight: 246.0 lbs

Last weeks Weight: 232.8 lbs

This week’s Weight: 234.4 lbs

Change this week: +1.6 lbs

Lost thus far: 11.6 lbs

Not an inspiring sight when you see a plus sigh, but i will live and I will bounce back. Life and my weight loss journey will go on.

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Weekly Weight: 232.8 Lbs

I know in the grand scheme of things the scale doesn’t matter. That it is just a tool to help me stay on track and remind me to keep doing what needs to be done. Bu I have to say, I love the mornings where the numbers go down.

It just makes me happy inside.

I’ll remind myself more that it doesn’t matter when the numbers aren’t changing or are going up despite my best efforts but now, on a morning where they are once again going down, I am just going to revel in it.

This week has been a really hard week for me. It is a hard week for me every year to be honest. The thing is, I am not a person who gets up well when it is still dark. If I need to extend my day well past daylight and into the dark I am fine. I am even okay with stayuing up all night and into the following day. Provided i can catch up on sleep later.

It is just the waking up when it is still dark outside that I am not good with. I am the person who watches shows about Tudor England and sees the clocks the Monks adjusted because there were prayers that needed to be said in the daylight and prayers said in the darkness and thinks it was genius. Seriously it is probably the only thing I retained from the program because it knocked everything else out. They adjusted the timing mechanism of the clock to account for the amount of daylight, so time was adjusted to suit the natural world and not the other way round.

i know, I am on the verge of ranting. It is the week before daylight savings that kicked me hard this week. It does this every year. It gets increasingly darker when i wake up and then just when I think I can’t take it any more, poof, time changes and I once again start to get up with the sun.

and in cae you are wondering, I am grumpy in the spring when they take that hour away from me, but it doesn’t hurt as much because the days are lengthening and while the initial week is dark, the sun is in the process of lightening it so i don’t have as many issues in the spring.

I know, it might be more than you wanted to know and completely off topic. All i am saying it was a bad week and the scale still showed good numbers, so I am pleased.

The Stats:

Starting Weight: 246.0 lbs

Last Week’s weight: 235.7 lbs

This week’s Weight: 232.8 lbs

Lost this week: 2.9 lbs

Lost thus far: 13.2 lbs

And so we close out another week. It was a good one for me and I am hoping the coming one will be even better. Happy Friday everyone!

Weekly Weight: 235.7 Lbs

If you are looking at the scale and thinking, wait a minute, that is the same number as last week, I congratulate you on your excellent memory. It is the same number as last week. I suppose after the more than four pounds dropped last week it should be expected that there would be little change this week. That is generally what happens with me.

More than four pounds in one week is a really big number for me, so I wasn’t expecting a big change this week.

This week i kept on keeping on. I missed a few exercises. due to rain early in the week and yesterday my brain was focused on getting a story out of my head so I shorted pretty much everything, including exercise. But I did manage to keep a tight reign on my food.

I am back in the habit of using the free version of My Fitness Pal. I have started remembering to put in my food and exercise on a daily basis and that has really kept me on track. I wanted to get back into the habit of using the free version of the app before I tried out the paid version. Since I am now in the habit I will be starting my paid month long trial (that is me paying for the app instead of the free version, no one is actually paying me to try the app) in November. I think nit will be quite helpful going into the holidays actually and I am kind of excited to get that started.

Today it wasn’t that exciting to see the same number appear on the scale but it is understandable and not something I am overly worried about. I am hoping that if I keep doing what i know I should be doing, that number will change and I will be slowly easing my way into a healthy weight number.

And that is where I really want to be.

The Stats:

Starting Weight: 246.0 lbs

Last Week’s Weight: 235.7 lbs

This Week’s weight: 235.7 lbs

This week’s Change: No Change.

Lost over all: 10.3 lbs

and so we keep on. I know that I am doing the right things, I just need to have faith that the right things will eventually get me where I need to be. And if they don’t then i will go to my doctor and have a conversation about adjusting what is wrong so that I am doing right again. But for now, I understand why the scale didn’t move, even if it was disappointing. So minor disappointment but no anxiety over this week. It’s not fabulous, but it could be worse. have a great Friday everyone.

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Weekly Weight: 235.7 lbs

You have no idea how glad I am to see the scale go down like that this week. I don’t expect all of the extra weight to disappear like that and to be honest, I don’t expect to have as high a number of loss next week as I did this week.

With travel or holiday weight gain I seem to gain that weight back fairly quickly due to lack of my usual meal plan and exercise, but the weight I gain that quickly tends to come off fairly quickly as well. It is one of the reasons why I watch myself around the holidays, limiting the extravagances to what i really enjoy and staying on my healthy plan for the rest of the time. If I gain weight from the extravagances then it too comes off quickly.

while this weight wasn’t from holiday extravagances (and ten pounds was just the new scale correcting the measurements of the old one) I am very happy to see the weight start to come back off. It was actually more than I expected and I had to get off the scale, let it drop back to zero and get on again just to double check.

The numbers were the same and so the happy dance began. Personally I am taking this as my reward for not giving up when I gained that chunk of weight back. I am determined to get to a healthy weight. Set backs are going to happen because life is a very unpredictable journey. But those set backs are dealt with and the journey continues.

And yes I know it is just a number on a scale but it makes me fell very good when it goes down. I will be less obsessed with those numbers when my weight once again starts with a one instead of a two. until then, it is a tracking tool that I will use to the best of my ability without letting it rule and or dominate my thoughts. which is sometimes harder than others. But today I am happy and I will deal with any socio-cultural issues regarding weight at a later date. Today there is just victory in getting back to a healthier lifestyle.

Starting Weight: 246.0 lbs

Last Week’s Weight: 240.5 lbs

This Week’s weight: 235.7 lbs

Lost this week: 4.3 lbs

Lost thus far: 10.3 lbs

And so the journey continues.

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Weekly Weight: 218.6 lbs

I know lat week was the official pre travel weigh in but i wanted to get one last weigh in before I travel so that i know what I started with. there won’t be any official stats as this is just a for my own information before i go post.

I will say that it is a high note to start the travel on. Last Friday, the last official weigh in I was 219.2 lbs. This week I am leaving at 218.6 lbs. Given the stress, the interruptions to any form of fitness or regularly scheduled, well anything for the last few weeks, this feels like a miracle quite honestly. Whether it is divine blessing or a bonus prize for all the stress I don’t care. i am going to take it and be happy with it for the moment. Once I finish my morning posts, I will begin my packing extravaganza.

It is a strange packing. I am not only packing for travel but packing to take care of my mom as she heals. I asked if there was anything she wanted and I have several old movies that she would like me to bring down, there are also a few stores she asked me to pick up some things from as I head down. So there will be the normal personal packing as well as the since you are coming down and the entertain someone post surgery packing list to get through.

To be honest it is actually a relief to be able to gather and pack. We will load the car first thing in the morning but after a few weeks of simply making lists and preparing to pack, actual packing feels like a relief as crazy as it will no doubt be. And so after the skin care line up, the packing will commence.

A schedule of necessity will take over for the next few weeks and then when i return I can actually once again attempt to get back into my own schedule. My hope is that by then the weather will have turned, the cooler weather clothing can emerge and the walks can become longer and a lot more fun.

But for now, we settle things, then we pack.

Weekly Weight: 219.4 lbs

And so back to the scale we go. I have to say i was pleasantly surprised by the scale this morning. At the moment as you know things are a little odd. I am working a little extra so that I can take some time off to help out my mom so fitness is a bit up in the air. The only thing that has been keeping me on track has been keeping a food journal so even when I decide that I want to indulge in some comfort foods i can at least control how much I am indulging and sort of monitor that.

I have to say one of the other things that has kept me on track has been Lifesaver’s peppermint candies. I have a jar on my desk and they have been amazing at keeping stress snacking at bay. These are the hard mints. For me, I love peppermint so the flavor is good. Also the peppermint makes me think of having fresh breath and that makes me less inclined to snack, sort of like you don’t want to drink a glass of orange juice right after brushing your teeth. It’s that kind of mental beat in my head which helps control the snacking. Plus these are the hard mints so I tend to suck on them rather than chomping right through them so my the time I actually finish a mint often the urge to snack has passed or at least dimmed greatly. The mints themselves are 15 calories which isn’t bad at all.

I’m sure any low calorie mint will do, I just happen to like the Lifesaver Peppermints. There is no sponsorship. Although I go through enough of them that it looks like there is. I keep a glass jar full of them on the end of my desk. Which kind of helps to. If the urge to snack is really strong I can just reach in and take out a hand full and set the hand full on my desk to slowly work through. Have of the time most of the hand full will go back into the jar but there is something that just feels down right decadent to just pick up a hand full of candy out of a jar. And sometimes that helps to. So shall we look at the stats?

Starting Weight: 246.0 lbs

Last week’s Weight: 220.2 lbs

This Week’s Weight: 219.4 lbs

Lost this week: 0.8 lbs

Lost thus far: 26.6 lbs

So I didn’t go into this week thinking I was going to lose much weight, but in the end I did loos almost a pound. Which does make me happy. After all if I can continue to slowly chip away at my weight with everything else going on, I have high hopes that I can continue through anything.

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Weekly Weight: 220.2 lbs

Okay I will be honest I am surprised there wasn’t a gain this week. I will take the 0.2 loss this week with no problems. At the moment the world is a bit Topsy Turvey with exercise coming in when possible and interruptions to any planned schedule practically guaranteed.

There is a lot of stress right now and it is completely unavoidable. Some stretches of time are just like that and this just happens to be a particularly stressful stretch of my personal river of time. Know that calm waters are no doubt up ahead doesn’t make it any better to go through but it is a ray of hope.

As far as my fitness is going it is do what I can when I can. My main focus on the weight loss aspect of things is simply to limit my comfort foods. I’m not knocking them out all together, list monitoring them. I can still have the creamy richness of a good brie but I make sure to measure out what I eat and only go for the one ounce wedge not consume the entire 8 ounce wedge in one sitting. I can crunch down on chips, but I put a small portion into a small bowl rather than either eat from the bag or pour the entire bag into a large sized serving bowl.

I am trying to be smart about things even as I realize that certain foods are comfort foods for a reason. Now is not the time to beat myself up for choosing brie over carrot sticks. Or even to analyze why I lean towards the brie in times of stress. Sometimes you need to pick your battles. I chose mine over portion size right now instead of rooting out the causes of stress eating. I can deal with my thought processes later.

I have to say the My Fitness Pal app has been really great. I did test the free version and even though my plan was to try out the paid version for August, i am going to extend that past the one month trial so I can try it out when I am out of town and in a different environment controlled by others and their needs. So instead of a month long trial it will be a two month one. Which I am okay with. I also haven’t really had a chance to play with a lot of the extra bits that come with the paid version. I will say though that just the basic food diary has been a life saver.

I personally really like the one that comes with the My Fitness pall app, but if you are trying to monitor your food, whether for fitness or weight loss or just general health I really recommend getting some form of food diary. It not only keeps a log of what I eat and what I do, which is extra nice when my schedule is not so routine, but even the few minutes it takes to enter the food into the system helps keep me cognizant of what it is that i am doing. It is also a little reminder that there is life outside of the stress. Which has also helped me. It is a little thing, but it has been mega helpful.

The Stats:

Starting weight: 246.0 lbs

Last Week’s Weight: 220.4 lbs

This Week’s Weight: 220.2 lbs

Lost this week: 0.2 lbs

Lost thus far: 25.8 lbs

So this week’s loss wasn’t major, but with everything going on, I am okay with that. If I can just hold my own through the stressful times without gaining weight, then I will be happy. which makes the 0.2 feel like a lot more than it actually is.


Weekly Weight: 220.4

It is that time again. Time to step on the scale and see what my efforts this week brought. I was pleased to see that the scale went down again. That always makes me happy. Yes I know it is just a number but it also feels like validation for my efforts. And as this week I had to slog it out in humid air thick enough to drink, I really like having the validation.

This week there isn’t much to report. The humidity was between 70-80% but thee was no rain. It looked like it wanted to rain for most of the week, it just didn’t. the air was soggy and miserable and if my walk wasn’t done before 9am, it wasn’t getting done.

This week all of my walking clothes took a beating. I have salt stains on garments i didn’t know could be salt stained. Once the weather breaks I am going to have to sort through my summer walking clothes and send a lot of them off to the rag bin. They have given their all for my wlks this year.

And actually this year ha been especially brutal on my undies. Usually I buy a pack of Hanes cotton undies in the spring. I buy them specifically to sweat in during my workouts. When I first started working out regularly my prettier undies just didn’t survive so now I buy the sacrificial pack and treat the pretty ones as a post shower treat, a reward for getting out there and sweating it out.

Usually the pack will last the summer and start to need replacing once the cooler weather sets in. This year a second pack had to be purchased at the end of july and if this set makes it to October I will be pleased and surprised. This has been a brutal summer for the undies.

The Stats

Starting Weight: 246.0 lbs

last week’s weight: 221.2 lbs

This week’s weight: 220.2 lbs

Lost this week: 1.0 lbs

Lost thus far: 25.8 lbs

And so we soldier on, braving the heat and humidity to shave just a little more butter from my bread, as my grandfather would say. Although if it were actually butter it would have melted off complexly in this weather. Alas, it requires a little more effort than that. But I am pleased there is once again progress.


Weekly Weight: 221.2 lbs

The Scale: August 19th, 2022

Nope, it is not a mistake. This scale looks exactly as it did last week. I think that while I have now gotten back to more regular habits, my exercise is still slowly getting back to normal too so it is slowly balancing out. The first part of the week was slow, exercise wise and I had to ease myself back into it.

Now I am more or less back to the level I was before I got sick, so hopefully that means that next week there will be some improvement. At least that is the plan. As of now both food and exercise have resumed normal mode so I have high hopes.

Either way I am just glad that I didn’t gain anything while this whole mess was going on. I’ll only worry if the scale stays in one place too long. Two weeks, especially this two weeks, at the same weight is not a major cause for concern.

Plus I am celebrating the little victories this week. I went on a normal walk without wheezing half way through. Bending over doesn’t make me completely out of breath and that persistent cough that woke me up in the middle of the night for the past few weeks is gone completely.

In fact Wednesday I even chased a runaway dog named Peanut around the neighborhood to catch him for my elderly neighbor. I was out of breath after that (as well as sweating profusely) but it was from running around after a Jack Russell on a tear and yelling “Peanut” at the top of my lungs, so that was understandable. And I recovered fairly easily. I wasn’t wheezing for hours afterwards as I would have a week earlier.

Somedays, you take the little victories.

The Stats:

Starting Weight: 246.0 lbs

Last week’s Weight: 221.2 lbs

This week’s Weight: 221.2 lbs

Lost this week: 0.0 lbs

Lost thus far: 24.8 lbs

And so life continues on. It is just putting one foot in front of the other. And being grateful when the steps aren’t shaky. Another week ends and another week begins. And as always I hope next week will be better than the one before. I hope the same for you too.