Weekly Weight:213.4 lbs

The Scale: December 18th, 2020

Do you know what I just realized? Since Christmas and New Year’s Day are both on Fridays and I am giving myself a holiday break from the scale, this is the last weight post of the year.

I feel that as a gift to myself I will not weigh in until after both holidays have passed. I’ll still be working out and watching what I eat, but there will be indulgences. I anticipate a little temporary weight gain but as I proved to myself over Thanksgiving , it will indeed only be a temporary set back.

Plus, I realized yesterday that I sort of need a little mental break from dieting, if only on the official recording. Yesterday, if you read the Daily post, you saw that I just had to let thoughts of diets and fitness go. I didn’t do anything crazy, and I stayed within my calories oddly enough, I just didn’t work out. This morning I did a couple of youtube videos. The same ones I did on Monday actually. So, I did get right back to it, I just needed a day off.

That is one thing that sort to settles to the back of your mind as you try to lose a lot of weight. You hold firm to the idea of being a healthy weight. You spur yourself forward by celebrating small victories along the way but it is a long haul. Counting calories every day, monitoring what you eat and what you do so that everything stays on track is somewhat exhausting.

Don’t get me wrong, it needs to be done. Even before restaurants went on limited service, I cooked almost all of our meals at home.We ate out maybe once a month or once every other month. For me dieting meant scaling back portion sizes and learning how to make certain foods a little bit healthier. Initially that added a layer to the effort where I had to rethink a lot of my recipes, but for the most part that has settled. But the calorie count still remains, and will remain throughout as portion size is still where I have a tendency to slip up.

So for the next two weeks I will still count calories and watch my portion size. I will get my exercise in but I will be giving myself the gift of not stepping on the scale until the first official weigh in of the year, January 8th. If there is one resolution I know I am going to make this year, it is that I am going to be kinder to myself. The break from the scale is the first step of that.

So what are the stats that technically close out 2020?

Starting Weight: 246 lbs

Last week’s weight: 214.8 lbs

This week’s weight: 213.4 lbs

Weight lost this week: 1.4 lbs

Weight lost thus far: 32.4 lbs

Personally I am very happy with this end of the year figure. I was hoping to be under the two hundred mark by New Year’s but I am confident that sometime in 2021 that will happen. This 32 lbs is just the start. My journey will continue. So over the holiday I will recover from the exhausting nature of eternally monitoring weight loss and get back into it fresh as the new year begins. I don’t know how many of you are on a similar journey but I hope you remember that it is okay to get tired of the whole thing and want to quit. I hope that even if you do need to take a moment or two and just let it go, you know that it is okay and that you can just as easily get back into it after a short breather. I think in the new year, all of us need to be a little kinder to ourselves.

The Daily: November 9th, 2020

Just when I am starting to get used to the cooler weather, BAM a warm spell drops in on us. I went walking today and it was 77 degrees outside. Don’t get me wrong, I am not a major fan of the cold, but it is November. I was just starting to get into the fall to winter groove too. I changed out my clothing and started switching out skin care.

well at least I managed to get two walks in without freezing my patootie off. So that was nice. I just switched out my walking shoes too so I have a blister on my heel, but thats okay. The shoes I was wearing now have a hole in the foam where my big toe goes so not switching wasn’t an option. And yeah I probably wouldn’t have the blister on the back of my heel if I hadn’t gone on the second walk.

So its sort of my fault.

I can live with that.

I also did a bit of shopping today. I got the last of the family holiday gifts ordered and and I have three birthday presents packed and ready to ship out. Tomorrow is a big post office run for me. So to celebrate, and because it was Boxy Charm choice day, I went to the Boxy pop Up sale. I was good. Well relatively good. I picked up a Volition Snow Mushroom Water Serum because I just adored it so much and then I add a full sized Akar Balancing Toner spray.

I know I liked it when I tried it and was on the fence about trying a full sized bottle, but I figured as it was at such a discount I could try a full sized version and see if my few little problems with the product went away. My two issues were that I wasn’t sure about a spray toner, which is easily solvable if I just spray the cotton round instead of spraying my face directly. The second issue was that the expiration date was so quick I wasn’t sure if I could make it through the toner before it expired. I figured for $12 I could try a full size and see how it worked out. It was a nice toner so I don’t mind doing the trial. Fingers crossed that the larger size has a slightly longer expiration date, or that I can use it up before the expiration date. Either way I am very happy with those two items as what I picked up. I was also happy about my Premium choice which was a Viseart Palette.

So I walked, I shopped and I stayed in my calories. Now I am going to take a shower because I am sweatier than I planned and get back to work. Not too shabby for a Monday.


Weekly Weight: 7 Days no scale

I know, usually this post is topped with a photo of the scale and my weight for the week but I am doing thirty days without stepping on the scale. I made it through my first week and I have to say I am really missing the scale. Not only is it accountability, but it is encouragement.

I kind of miss it.

I know that sounds weird because I don’t actually like the scale. It so often reflects things I don’t want to see that I think of it as an enemy. But it isn’t. It is a tool and in no way a measure of my self worth.

The scale doesn’t go high enough to measure my self worth. It is merely a reflection of effort.

And while I enjoy seeing the results of my efforts in numerical form, I agreed not to get on the scale for a month. In fact, I sent the scale to work worth my baby. He is keeping it safely hidden away from the house for the next month.

Mostly because I didn’t trust myself not to cheat.

I am occasionally weak.

So we are doing the week in review holistically.

This week I went a little bonkers with the weighing of ingredients and calorie counting early in the week. I somehow suspected the weight would sneak on once it thought I could no longer see it. So Monday and Tuesday I was a little crazy, but I can only keep up that level of crazy for so long and I started to loosen up a bit by mid week.

I replaced a bunch of shirts yesterday that can attest to my sweating it out in the sun. I picked up a pack of Hanes T-shirts and placed an order for a couple of more packs to have in readiness. (partially because they were having a sale and partially to extend their use by having a larger number to rotate through).

This morning when I dressed, I put on an oversized tunic shirt and leggings. I felt like I had some how gotten shorter in the night. I hadn’t worn these leggings in a while and as my weight has gone down a bit, they get baggier and by extension longer in the leg with a higher waist. It is a reminder that when I start looking at putting my summer clothes away and taking out my fall and winter ones, I will need to do a bit of a clear out. There will be a large fashion show for one as I not only see what is too worn out to be kept but what needs to be donated because it no longer fits.

It won’t really start to cool down here until Mid October so I am aiming for the clear out at the end of September. Oddly enough right after my next official weigh in.

Over all I think this week went fairly well. For me I think the issue is going to be one of drift. One of my big deterrents for extra helpings of an extra treat is knowing that I am going to have to get on the scale on Friday and thus admit what I’ve done to the world (or at least those reading this blog).

‘You can have that second slice of pie if you want but you are still going to have to step on the scale on Friday.’

Its now a hollow threat.

The daily posts are helping though. It requires that I list what I do and reminds me to monitor, so I will be keeping those up for the rest of the month. So I will struggle along and keep my fingers crossed that it works as it is supposed to and that there isn’t something i’m missing.

Because honestly, without the scale it sort of feels like I am missing something. But I gave my word so here we are. the end of week one, feeling fine, slightly nervous and cautiously optimistic.

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