Weigh In: 221.8 lbs

I admit, it was nice to see the numbers descend, even if it was just by a little bit. This week had ups and downs. We started with humidity that made you drink each breath and start to google rain dances just to get the moisture out of the air for a bit. Followed by periodic rains that would send pounding torrential rain for about five minutes and then abruptly stop like someone shut off a tap.

Maybe it was a faulty rain dance.

Then there was my babydoll’s rescheduled surgery. It went really well, but he did need two days of extra attention. so normality went out the door.

I did use the ab wheel this week though and I have to say, for something that looks a bit like a kids toy, it is quite the work out. I am slowly gaining confidence with it. Each time I use it without losing control and smacking my head into the mats gives me a bit more confidence. I don’t know why that is my main fear since that isn’t really logical, but it is. I’m working on it. And each time it doesn’t happen helps. My belly still looks like a jiggly pudding but I can certainly feel the after effects of using it in my abs. while my midsection may disagree, I’m calling that a good thing.

As for the My Fitness Pal, I did miss a few days of meal recording this week. I admit when my schedule gets knocked out of whack I tend to guestimate calories more than anything other time. I think it is because when i am working I have my phone on the desk so it is easy to record breakfast just before i start work and lunch just after I come back from eating it and restart my work. But Thursday, once things settled down again and I was back at the desk, the habit kicked back in automatically so I am really happy to see that the habit is sticking.

Next week I will be reviewing the month with the free version of the My Fitness Pal and then starting on a paid subscription to see the difference and which one I like better. I’m sure it is a great system but sometimes I find that the extras a subscription gives me aren’t things I use and that the free version is all I need. Other times I find the extras fabulous and don’t want to give them up once I’ve tried them. I’ve used the free version of the My Fitness Pal off and on for quite a few years now so it will be interesting for me to do the comparison. Hopefully you will find it interesting too. And then we can all learn something.

The Stats:

Starting Weight: 246.0 lbs

Last Week’s Weight: 222.2 lbs

This week’s weight: 221.8 lbs

Lost this week: 0.4 lbs

Lost thus far: 24.2 lbs

I know it wasn’t a lot of weight lost this week, but it was some. After the super stress gain of last week it is nice to see that there is once again a downward slope to the graph. Like any long haul effort, there are ups and downs, wins and losses. I know this and i accept it , but I just prefer the wins, however small. And so we start Friday. I have a small but important win under my belt, even if that belt doesn’t feel any looser and I feel good about going into the last day of the week. I hope you have a fantastic one.

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Weekly Weight: 222.2 lbs

I am not surprised that my scale went up this week. When I am stressed even if I don’t eat, I sort of gain weight. It is like my body pulls moisture from the air and uses it to lock in everything. My eating also wasn’t the best and with heat followed by lots of rain storms my workout weren’t the best either. so it was pretty much the perfect storm.

But here is the good thing about a weight loss journey. No matter how many times you get knocked back, you only really fail if you stop trying. the exercise I did get was good for me. The fact that even though I did eat some not so great foods, I still tried to reign in my portions size meant that it was a small weight gain rather than a large one.

Would I have liked it not to have happened? Sure, but I understand why it did and I am not going to let it worry me too much. While I am working out and losing weight to better my life and keep me healthy for the rest of it, working out and weight loss are not my life.

they are a means to an end not an end in and of themselves.

I think it is easy to lose track of that.

I also think it is very important that it be remembered.

The Stats:

Starting weight: 246.0 lbs

Last Week’s Weight: 219.0 lbs

This weeks Weight: 222.2 lbs

Change this week: +3.2 lbs

Lost this far: 23.8 lbs

And so I was knocked back this week by stress and a need to just breathe. Today, I’ll go on a walk, make my menu plan for next week and get back on track working to make next week’s numbers better. I know this and I am okay with it.

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Weekly Weight: Last week of April No Scale

And so the month of April No scale comes to an end. I am relieved that I did skip the scale this month. We had company, there was a holiday with extra feasting and it was nice to not have to think about the scale.

At the same time, I know I gained some weight. I can feel it in the waist band of my jeans. And while I hate knowing that I did gain weight, I think it would have added extra stress on an already stressful month to worry about the scale.

For me, April went bonkers. Earlier this year I agreed to a couple of projects that were supposed to be small ones with limited scopes of work. As time went forward they morphed and just took over. April was when they both wrapped up and so there were longer than normal days mixed in with the house guests and Holidays. To be honest, I don’t actually remember a lot of the month. It went whizzing by in a hail of deadlines.

Last week I realized that the month was coming to an end and that soon i would have to step back on the scale and see the gain in no argument digital numbers. My goal for this last week of April was not to panic. It was to put the month behind me, accept that the weight gain was coming and to not go crazy trying to take it all off before i stepped back onto the scale.

Instead i went through the cabinets and made sure we didn’t have any sneaky lurking holiday items. I made a meal plan and this week I concentrated on getting back on track with the meals and getting into the habit of paying attention instead of granting myself temporary exemptions. Mostly because I know that if i stress about it and try to go overboard then it will usually backfire on me. In other words i may lose what I added over April, but it won’t be sustainable so in may I’ll end up putting it back on again before I take it off. I’ve been on many back and forths over the years. And that is always what happens. So I am trying to deal with holiday weight in a healthier way. I am just accepting it, understanding that it was due to a change in diet and exercise and accepting that the weight will come back off once I get back into my routine.

I a also reminding myself that Easter was the last big Feast Holiday until Thanksgiving. In my family there will be a picnic for Memorial day and a barbeque for Independence day, but both are single events rather than long weekends and easily navigable, diet wise. The feasting Holidays start with thanksgiving, run through the holiday parties, Christmas, New years and then end with Easter. Which means that until November I will just have a few off days here and there, but nothing major to knock me off of my diet and exercise plan. At least nothing expected anyway.

There is always room for the unexpected.

So this is the end of April. Next week it will be back to the scale. While I no longer fear the scale as I once did, I will always have mixed feelings about it and will frequently need mental health breaks from it. Which I think is healthy. Sometimes life simply needs to be lived. While my weight loss is something needed for my over all health and well being throughout my life, it isn’t something that should take over my life. I know as these posts are a record of the ups and downs of my dieting life, weight and it’s loss (or lack of) can seem like the main focus of my world. It isn’t and sometimes it doesn’t hurt to be reminded that I am dieting to better my life, not living to diet.

Perfume Review: Scentered De-stress

I know, it isn’t quite a perfume, but that did seem to be the best category of product to group this under. This Scentered De-Stress Therapy balm is applied to the pulse points and worn more or less like a perfume. The scents are supposed to calm you down and help you de-stress, as the name suggests. I suppose it is a wellness or aromatherapy product more than a perfume.

This week I wore this centered balm in the same way I would wear a perfume. According to the website…

DE-STRESS our remarkably soothing blend to help you juggle more throughout your day, keeping you calm and in control. It’s your portable companion to support you through life’s everyday journey. 

Our 100% natural, essential oil based Aromatherapy Balm is mess-free and won’t leak or spill in your bag. Use DE-STRESS as part of our Wellbeing Ritual.  

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The scent notes listed for this balm are Chamomile, Neroli and Mandarin. While the neroli and mandarin don’t surprise me because there is a distinct orange scent to the balm, the chamomile does. The two scents I got from this balm are orange and lavender. I rather like it actually, the herbal notes keep the orange from smelling too sweet and the orange keeps the herby bits from smelling too medicinal.

however to smell this you actually have to hold your wrist up to your nose. There is no wafting of aroma. The scent is strong when you first apply it, but almost instantly it fades away. If you hold your wrist to your nose, you can smell the balm on your skin for about an hour before it is completely faded from even your skin.

I was hoping that the scent was a bit stronger as I like the thought of a perfume (or aromatherapy oil) coming in a balm format. It is spill proof and easy to travel with or keep in the purse. But the faint level of scent and small amount of time that it lasts makes it a pretty pointless product. I can see how the scent would be soothing. I find it a nice calming blend of aromas. However getting that scent to my nose in order to perform any soothing and de-stressing action was the difficult part.

I do have a sample size of this product though so perhaps with a full sized balm more of a scent would appear. I did try to cover a wider swath of my wrist with the balm in an effort to mimic the application of a full sized version. The scent level remained the same, however the waxy residue from the balm was just more prevalent. I like the thought behind it, I like the scent and i really wanted this product to work, but quite honestly I don’t think that it is for me. I simply didn’t get enough scent from it to work any de-stressing benefits. I think it could work, I just don’t think this product is quite there yet. So for me, the Scentered De-stress Therapy Balm is a pass.

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